'til death do us part - Chapter 28

Me: Jawaher i can hold myself, i love u from the 1st time i set my eyes on you..
Jawaher: But im married !
Me: I know Jawaher, please basaweelch ayshay just leave Abdulrahman Ww ana bat8adamlch Ww bareby a7mad wiyach
Jawaher: Rayly Ww a7ibah, ma aba akhsara are u crazy !
Me: Jawaher please
Jawaher: Marwan khalas ! please leave me and my family alone ! As much as i want to tell Abdulrahman wat you did i dont want to jeopardize your friendship with him, he sees you as your best-friend your brother, he actually talks about you more than his son.. What u did was so low of you..
Me: Dkheeelich jawaher please abach
Jawaher: Well too bad.. you really really put that black dot in my life i never expected it..
Me: Ana asf Jawaher
Jawaher: What about your girlfriend that you were with, eh you know what i have to go, dont you ever get close to me or my son


She got up and left, without leaving me to say something.. What i did was wrong.. but i cant hold myself towards her.. she's the one i really love, why didn't she wait 'til she finished her studies, laish abdulrahman esta3yal ww khathaha, what she said she really ment it, she wouldnt call me and ask to meet up.. Thoughts running through my mind.. Regrets..


Abdulrahman: Bo 7i9aa! Oy ! marwano balak! tfaker femno
Me: Sho tsawee entih ehneeh
Abdulrahman: Ya'ay akhthly starbucks, achoufk mn rb3 sa3ah yals Ww sar7an Wazager 3alaik mob mentibeh tefaker fel 3asheegah ha?
Me: La yabooy ay 3asheegah
Abdulrahman: Hatheech ely kanat weyak fDisney
Me: Haih Haih ya 3abdlra7man ra7at hatheech khalaas
Abdulrahman: Afaa
Me: Egrb
Abdulrahman: Lala barw7 ana 3alyeh assignment lazim aslmeh wara bacher
Me: enchoufk 3eyal


Abdulrahman left.. when he asked abt the "3asheegah" i was really talking about his wife, and really felt bad, i looked at my phn and scrolled through the pictures and there was a pic of her i kept starring at for a while clicked on the delete button, Jawaher nadra ma balga bent mithlha.. A7bhaa 

'til death do us part - Chapter 27

Why did he do that? What will Abdulrahman say? What would he do if i told him? Did i like get raped?

I'm so scared .. this wasn't suppose to happen, how can he do that to his best friend ? why did he do that ?  but he was with his girlfriend ! i can't tell anyone about this, what if i get pregnant and Abdulrahman then finds out that its not his baby!? I need to meet up with him ask him why did he do that and what might happen!

Abdulrahman: Jawaher!

Me: Ha?

Abdulrahman: Shfech u zoned out faj2ah

Me: La mashay

Abdulrahman: Are you sure?

Me: Yah 

Abdulrahman: Hmm shay mthaygench ?

Me: La i guess its my time of the month again 

Abdulrahman: oh ok 7abeeby, bakheth a7mad Ww bawadyh el Pier bala3ba shiwayah, bateen ma3ana?

Me: La mafeya bas t7amal 3alaih okay?

Abdulrahman: Nshalla 

Me: Ww kheth a'3ratha 7a6hom fel sayara incase you need it 

Abdulrahman: ok 7abeeby

I gave him Ahmeds bag, he took Ahmed kissed me on my cheeks and said " I love you 3yoonee " and left.. I felt like crying.. i started shaking as they walked away, and dove off..  i have to do it.. i need to know why did he do that to me, i'll be carrying thing for the rest of my life, i'm scared i don't know what to do, i'm really depressed i dont want to ruin my marriage.. i love Abdulrahman.. i don't want to lose him.. 

*rings*

Voice: Aloo

Me: Marwan .... 

'til death do us part - Chapter 26

What is taking her so long, 15 minutes in the toilet? oh rite how can i forget she's a girl, girls take that long la akthar.. batraya 5 more minutes and if shes not back im going to go check wainha .. i looked at a7mad el 6fs m6al3ly lsaneh i started laughing and did the same back..
Finally here she comes

Me: Weein Re7teeee?!!!
Jawaher: (plants a warm soft kiss on my lips, looks at me with her sparkly eyes)  Shoo ba3ad wein kent u know (bites her lips)
Me: (confused,fake laugh) Jawaher 3a6eeny dgayeg bas barooo7 al7amam w barja3
Jawaher: Ok 7abeeby

I went to the toilet, finished my business and went to wash my hands, rf3t rasy and saw my reflection on the mirror.. and marwan comes out from one of the toilet cubicles

Me: Marwan!
Marwan: Bu A7mad hala hala
Me: Shoo tsawee hnee
Marwan: Hay rbee3tee 7asherteny tab'3ee tee disney land mn mita glt yala enrooo7 elyoum
Me: Zein wallah mtwalh 3alaik yakhee wein manshoofk
Marwan: wallah na7na ely manshoofk enteh ya rayal ana msh'3ool weya el drasa 6frt bas aba ard alblad ta3al shakhbarah a7mad?
Me: Wallah tamaaam elyoum yaybeeneh hnee mstaaans ta3al banroo7la

So on our way to jawaher my and son marwan and i catched up on wat has been going on with studies etc, as we got to the table jawaher was preparing a7mads milk

Me: Jawaher, Marwan yay ychoof A7mad
Jawaher: Oh Hala Marwan
Marwan: Mar7ba Om A7mad shakhbarech
Jawaher: el 7emdella ent shakhbarek
Marwan: Bekhair el7emdella Mashalla el rayal kebar
Me: Chft 3ad, yalla mta dork enteh teebelna el kha6eebeh
Marwan: ya rayal e9ber 3aleina shwy khalny a5l9 w ard elblad w asht'3l wy9eer khair lein ba3dain
Me: (laughing) Asmeek enteh
Marwan: Yalla 7abeebee tamerna 3a shai?
Me: Salamtek keep in touch ha
Marwan: Akeed, yala m3asalama
Me & Jawaher: Ma3asalama

So Marwan left and then the fireworks started going off, a7mad was so scared that he started crying.. we rushed to the car so that he calms down and just sleep, jawaher stayed in the back seat trying to put ahmed to sleep while i was driving

Jawaher: My chauffeur..
Me: Yes Mrs Abdulrahman Al x
Jawaher: I'm hott
Me: Yes Ma'am u r, ur man is lucky to have u (posh brit accent)
Jawaher: No i'm hot as in turn up the ac
Me: (laughing) Nshalla  3amoh ay awamer thanya
Jawaher: Haih, i'm kinda feeling sexy
Me: 10 minutes oo wa9leen !
Jawaher: (laughs) hold ur horses i think today was a long day (has a crooked evil smile on her face)
Me: wats with that smile and yes it was
Jawaher: u know (winks)
Me: know wat?
Jawaher: After the toilet wat happened
Me: u came and kissed me
Jawaher: no before that
Me: U went to the toilet
Jawaher: (confused) 3abdlra7man after the toilet and before kissing u wat happened
Me: you walked, are you trying to confuse me or something (laughs)
Jawaher: (fake laugh) No .. yalla 7mdla 3a salamatna im gonna take A7mad to his room wentah yeeb a'3ra'6a
Me: Dont forget the baby speakers
Jawaher: ohh zain u reminded me

She got down and took a7mad with her, she said something about after the toilet and before kissing me what happened? i joked around about her walking but she hand a confused face, probably she had some other joke in mind and she thought it was lame or did something really happen? 

'Til death do us part - Chapter 25

So Abdulrahman filed a restraining order against Razan.. and we havent seen her ever since that thing she did.. i thank god for that rumor has it she left the country and went back to Dubai, and others say she just moved away to a different state.. who knws and who cares, Baby a7mad is getting older and said his 1st 2 words " mama " and "baba" .. and today we're planning on going to Disney Land a7mad adores mickey mouse .. 3abdlra7man and i had our lunch, fed a7mad packed his things and off we went to Disney Land. The last time i've been there almost 13 years ago .. i used to get all jumpy and excited as we got there we were on time for the show i can see Abdulrahman carrying our son on his shoulders all bouncy and happy and ahmed clapping i looked away for a few seconds and saw from a distance Marwan glaring at me, i felt like something i dont really know how to describe it .. Its like he has a thing for me .. i dont know how to explain it but ..

Abdulrahman: Jawaher!
Me: Ha 7abeeby
Abdulrahman: shu feech mn mta yals azrgrch wnty 9ada 3any emnu yalsa tchoofeen?
Me: La nothing mndamja achoof keif el yahal mstanseen
Abdulrahman: Heih Heih ra7at ayamna na7na kena chy n7n mestanseen mthelhom
Me: (laughs) yaah
Abdulrahman: yalla 7abeebi enroo7
Me: ok

so we put baby a7mad on his stroller and went round and marwan was on my mind, how did we knw we're here .. was it just a coincidence or what, ya3ni mosta7eel kaif ykoon hny w maykhaber 3abdlra7man

Abdulrahman: Jawaher r u ok?
Me: yah laish
Abdulrahman: La a7sbch madry keif mob mrta7a? wla shai feech shai m'6aygnch?
Me: Lala its just amm memories are coming bak to me
Abdulrahman: fdeitch (kisses me on the cheeks)

so we went around la3abna a7mad shwy and then went to have something to eat .. i've never seen ahmed so happy before and abdulrahman also he was such a kid i love that thing about him. I got up and left the table to go to the toilet for a quick makeup touch i left the toilet and felt someone  grabbing me from my hand. Covered my eyes and my mouth and pulled me back.. i kept on kicking around and crying my eyes out the only thing thats running through my mind was Ahmed what if im getting kidnapped now and i never get to see my son.. this person then put me on a chair and i opened my eyes and was in a different place i looked around me scared and speechless tears rushing to my eyes i looked to my left and ..

'Til death do us part - Chapter 24

She just has to ruin everything.. Why the hell did she show me that .. I'm sure jawaher would never do that ..ya3ni come on ! Jawaher yala tkalem shabaab she'll go party? and jawaher is very honest with me she tells me everything.. why did i even take the pictures from Razan, why am i even thinking about this ana merty w a3arefha 3adel i would never let any whore ruin my marriage.. awal ma now9al el beit i have to burn these pictures..

Jawaher: Abdulrahman
Me: Ha?
Jawaher: Sho feek 7abeeby why did we have to leave ?
Me: Mashay Jawaher
Jawaher: is it because i shopped a lot ?
Me: Laa ! that would never bother me Nty testahelian kelshay
Jawaher: then whats wrong?
Me: Mashay 7abeeby bas mazajy shwy mob ok
Jawaher: ok tebany asoog 3ank?
Me: Lala 7abeeby 3adi

We're almost close to the house, i don't want to show her that something is bothering me i'll just act normal wla chana shai mestwy, i dont want to say anything i love my wife and i love my son i dont want to lose them because of some stupid photoshopped pictures Razan showed me. finally we9alna albait now the nanny took ahmed to the nursery and jawaher helped me with the stuff..

Jawaher: 7ag al3isha teba men bara3 wella ne6ba5
Me: ellay tebainah
Jawaher: Ok im craving pizza i'll order some
Me: ok ..
Jawaher: 3abdlra7man enteh e6leb el pizza ana neseit telefony fel sayra baseer ayeeba
Me: ok sho tebein
Jawaher: hmm ayshai makel weyak

Jawaher left to get her phone and i ordered the pizza, after i was done i went upstairs to see ahmed, i dismissed his nanny its been a long day for her meskeena. i stayed with ahmed in his room playing with him.. and jawaher slowly comes into the room holding the envelop ..

Me: Jawaher!
Jawaher: What is this suppose to be
Me: Jawaher u were not suppose to see that
Jawaher: Who did this ?
Me: Jawaher i know these pictures are photoshopped
Jawaher: this was bothering you?
Me: yaah bas 3gob i thought of it and knew it was photoshopped
Jawaher: who would do this?
Me: It was razan
Jawaher: hm
Me: pls Jawaher lat'6aygain
Jawaher: wtha neshrat'hom
Me: She wont, and if she did dwaha 3endy
(door bell rings)
Jawaher: give me ahmed, see choof mno 3al bab

i went down payed the pizza guy, took the pizza to the kitchen got some drinks out and called jawaher to come down, she got ahmed with her and put it on his chair and he fell asleep, she ate her pizza silently wella 7ata kamelat her 1st piece, she sat there sar7ana, she then laid on her side grabbed her phn and started i guess BBM-ing, and this is the 1st time ever i see her like, wtf...

Me: JAWAHER ! LEISH T9EE7EN!
Jawaher: I'm not
Me: THEN WAT DO U CALL THIS (wipes her tears)
Jawaher: La bas ta3bana kent athawab
Me: jawaher wallaah i will handle this ana baraweeeha
Jawaher: La its ok
Me: shu its ok ! my wife is crying ! my wife is depressed all because of this ! wallah baraweeeha! ma ba5aleeha la titgarab mnch wla mn ay 7ad !
Jawaher: shu batsawu 3abdlra7man?
Me: bacher batchoofeen, roo7y 5ethy a7mad '3erfata
Jawaher: gooli 3abdlra7man ma nba f'6aye7
Me: Ma3alaich nty wady a7mad w ana bagoolch

Jawaher left and the 1st thing i did was call one of my friends and asked for the number of his lawyer, i'll be filing a restraining order against her, come on ya3ni this is america everyone does this.

'Til death do us part - Chapter 23

Abdulrahman: Gooomy yalla
Me: mafya abdulrahman met-hayza
Abdulrahman: yalla 3ad since when do u say no to shopping
Me: mnoo baytem weya a7mad
Abdulrahman: banakhtha weyana
Me: khalas ok go prepare a7mads bag and baseer abadil malabsee
Abdulrahman: Ok

the 1st day of spring break i've been waiting for this holiday, but for some reason i am totally not in the mood to go out.. bas 3ashan kha6er abdulrahman i will, so we're planning on going to south coast plaza at irvine. its a 60 minute drive.. As we got there it was time for ahmeds lunch. we sat in a small coffee shop abdulrahman had his coffee while i was feeding ahmed .. after that we went and shopped its been a really long time since i shopped for myself all i ever thought about was my son and my husband. my 1st stop was hermes ofc, i went in asked for all the bags they had available, and omg every bag i wanted they had available,

Me: 3abdlra7man shoo tishoof a7la akheth the kelly or constance
Abdulrahman: khethy ethneinat'hom

Me: La shu one is enough 

Abdulrahman: Jawaher come on latest7een ana raylech khethy ely tbaainah enshalla lo 20 bags 

Me: Ok enteh gooli which one a5eth 

Abdulrahman: khethey el brown wl gold 7deed, el beige hay oo om el skin 

Me: Ok so the brown constance with the gold hardware, the birkin and the kelly pls

Sales person: Sure ma'am

Abdulrahman: mashalla 3alaich you still have ur fashion sense 

Me: akeed 7abeeby 

Abdulrahman: (laughs) nzein shoo ba3ad fekha6erch 

Me: Its your turn now, 

Abdulrahman: U'll get me a bag (straight face)

Me: (laughs) noo, amm excuse me for him i would like to have those slippers, the navy blue belt and these two shirts in medium 

Abdulrahman: (laughs) my wife knows me well

Sales person: (laughs)  i'm sure she does, i'll prepare all your items at the front

After we finished from hermes abdulrahman said he'll take the bags to the car, he took a really long time i tried calling him it takes me straight to voice mail, i took ahmed and went to where we parked and saw him

Abdulrahman: We're leaving yalla 

Me: laish sho mestewy

Abdulrahman: Rekbey el sayara now 

Me: mabaa lain matgoolee shoo mestewyy

Abdulrahman: Jawaher rekbey el sayara  bagoolch fel 6ereej 

Me: fine ..

We drove the whole way back silently..

No words..

Nothing...

What happened... 

'Til death do us part - Chapter 22

My friends and i went to Arizona for the weekend to visit some of our friends who were there, jawaher was with ahmed in L.A, her friend eman stayed with her while i was gone.. my friends and i had a great time in Arizona.. as we got back to LA i dropped my friends and went straight to our house, i saw Eman and Ghaya's car parked outside the house, i opened the house door and started calling for my wife

Me: UM A7MAD ! Um A7mad ! .. Jawaher !
Ben: Hey! welcome back! hows arizona!
Me: (shocked) Gd where is my wife
Ben: Oh she's just giving ahmed a bath

i ran straight upstairs to the nursery room, and started knocking at the toilet door

Jawaher: 3abdlra7man ! 7mdla 3asalama 7abeeby
Me: Jawaher shu gaylilch ana !
Jawaher: Shu (confused face)
Me: El 7ayawan ha shu ysawy f beitna !
Jawaher: Mno ha?
Me: El khaneeth !
Jawaher: Wallah madry ana asb7 a7mad, ymkn ya w ana fog
Me: Choofee Jawaher .. ana hal ensan ma abah ytgarab mnch Ntyy wla mn wldy ! en chfteh marathanyeh wallah ba7wsheh mn el beit !
Jawaher: Ok barmes Eman
Me: Nzain ana ba6la3 baroo7 a5thley akel yoom bayrw7 ha call me
Jawaher: 3abdlra7man enta ta3ban stay at home atleast here w ana bayeeblek el akel fog
Me: La jawaher ma6eej el beit yoom ha mawjood
Jawaher: Khalas ely tchoofa 7abeeby

she kissed me on my cheeks and i left, i hate having seeing or having gay men around me, i feel disgusted, ugh ma7s eni mrtaaaaa7 !.. so i'm cruising around, m7taaar ma3rf shu akel, oo YO3AN!! .. i drove all the way to Santa Monica then went to Malibu and then got a BB message from Jawaher "Ghaya and Ben left Eman ba3adha hnee etha tab'3ee tee Ww a3rf enk ma t3ashait i have your dinner here waiting for you" my wife knows me well haha.. i drove back home and went straight to the kitchen, eman and jawaher were cleaning the dishes and i sat infront of the TV on the floor watching cartoons and having my dinner..

Me: Jawaher i want coke!
Jawaher: No
Me: Jawaher pleeeeaaasse!
Jawaher: No
Me: Jaa-wa-herrrrrr
Eman: (laughing) ur husband sounds like a kid
Jawaher: I know (laughing)
Me: Jawa-herrrrr
Jawaher: Fine but ur not drinking the whole can
Me: Ok

After i finished having my dinner eman left, and jawaher washed my plate and came and sat with me, and told me that Eman will talk to Ben, i really feel bad for jawaher, bas ana asawy hal shai 7ag ma9la7at'ha and ma9la6at waladna, i don't want my son to grow up being influenced buy him.. I am just doing the right thing for my family......