'Til death do us part - Chapter 33 (Finale 1/2)

2011 ended really bad with the split up of Abdulrahman and I, but 2012 is even worse.. fighting for custody, arguments between both families.. However Ahmed and i haven't spoken .. In mid February i won sole custody of Ahmed.. When the judge told us that i first turned around and looked at Abdulrahman, his face was pale and blank.. i teared up just looking at him, he looked at me smiled and walked away.. who ever knew that after one year of getting married I'd be a single about to be divorced mother.. I never wanted this to happen.. our families being so stubborn causing all this.. i love Abdulrahman and i do want him back, if he doesnt want me i'd rather have shared custody than sole custody of Ahmed.. My baby needs to be with his father !


Me: Ubooya mumkn aklm Abdulra7man shwy
Dad: La2

Me: No dad i have to, no matter wat he's still the father of me son!

Dad: Jawaher geltlij la2

Me: You can't make me .. Abdulra7man!

Dad: Jawaher!

I ran to Abdulrahman held his hand and told him

" no matter wat i'll always love you, ur the love of my life and the father of my son,  non of our parents can do anything to make us live apart i know you dont want me anymore but we still have a7mad and he's the only one who'll keep as connected to each other "

Abdulrahman: I'll always love you jawaher, but you already signed the divorce papers, I'm on my way to sign them now thats wat our parents want, u'll be a good mother to a7mad lat7ateen

Dad: Yes jawaher he's doing the right thing 

Me: No he's not! abdulra7man i love u can't live without you, a7mad needs his father in his life ! hes almost 1 now he needs you ! Dad do something please ! dont ruin the life i always wanted, i was happy with abdulra7man how could one thing just do all this to us !

Abdulrahman: 3ami..

Dad: Tbaha el bent?

Abdulrahman: Haih 

Abdulrahmans Dad: Abdulrahman mt2akd ?

Abdulrahman: Haih ubooyh

Dad: 3eyal twaklo

'Til death do us part - Chapter 32

Standing in front of the judge, 

Fighting for my sons custody,

I never thought things would lead to this 

One stupid lie

And everything changed.. 

I knew i shouldn't have believed him 

I thought we were brothers

This is what he has done to me..

He ruined my marriage and my family

I knew Jawaher would never do such a thing 

I knew i should've believed her..

God she's my wife, Or should i say was..

Whats done is done..

I lost my wife..

And now I'm about to lose my son..

This wasn't suppose to be like this..

She's not even looking at me..

Not a glimpse.

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If only he knew how much i loved him..

If only he would believe me 

Abdulrahman was the love of my life 

How could he believe Marwan

I knew it was a mistake hiding what Marwan did to me 

But why would i risk my marriage and bring up something like that..

God i just wish i told Abdulrahman..

We wouldn't be here right now..

I can never hate Abdulrahman ..

It wasn't his mistake for hitting me ..

He was just mad..

I don't know if i'm just saying this 

Or I'm saying this cuz i still do love him..

Look at us in a room together, 

I can't even try to look at him..

I'm so scared

I don't want to lose Ahmed 

Or Abdulrahman

But i'm sure he no longer wants me..

I'm trying so hard to be strong..

'Til death do us part - Chapter 31

Negative?

Mmm is she trying to get pregnant again or what?

Me: JAWAHER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Jawaher: Na3aaam?

Me: NA3AMA TARFS A7MAD TA3ALY HNYYYY!!

Jawaher: Shoo glt!

Me: Ta3aly!

Jawaher: Shoo?

Me: Shu ha?

Jawaher: Pregnancy test

Me: Mat2adabty!

Jawaher: Mn shoo?

Me: Jawaher a7mad is enough why do you want to get pregnant again?

Jawaher: I'm not .. its just i'm late i thought i was pregnant

Me: Zein!

Jawaher: Leish dont you want us to have another baby?

Me: No..

Jawaher: ..oh

Me: Not for now lets wait at least 3 years

Jawaher: But thats too much Abdulra7man

Me: 7abeebee u've had a rough year lets just wait 

Jawaher: Okay

(ahmed cries)

Jawaher: Wldk ely batrfsa al na3ama y9ee7 

Me: Adry, taraha rafstnah

Jawaher: Baseerla

Me: Laaa2 matroo7eela

Jawaher: Abdulra7man 7aram 3alaik

Me: Bayskt ww bayrd ynam 

Jawaher: 7aram 3alaik

Me: Shhhhhh bayaskt ma3alaich

Jawaher: wldy 7araam

Me: hathoo skat

Jawaher: ok i'm going to my yoga class tc of my baby 

Me: ok marwan bayeeni

Jawaher: shu yba ba3ad haa

Me: ha? laish cheeee tgooleen

Jawaher: ma gmt arta7la

Me: Leish?

Jawaher: Ma3rf

Me: Sawa feech shai?

Jawaher: La2

Me: Jawaher

Jawaher: Nothing happened and if something did bakhaberk

Me: Ok 7abeeebee TC

Jawaher rushed down stairs, i can feel it that something happened 

Jawaher: Abdulra7man! MARWAN W9AL!

Me: YA'AY

Jawaher: BYE!

i carried a7mad and took him downstairs to the living room

Marwan: ABDULRA7MAN!

Me: Ta3aal ana fl meelas

Marwan: (laughs) achoofk ur baby sitting

Me: shasawy ba3ad 

Marwan: (laughs) .. yakhy bas malait aba ard elblad

Me: 7ata ana, yalla ma bga shay ww banrd 

Marwan: Entoo ana ba3adny 3al a8al sina ou n9

Me: allah y3eenk.....

For some weird reason i feel like punching the guy.. i dont know why .. i feel like something happened between the both of them and jawaher doesnt want to tell me

Me: Marwan aba as2alk ww allah ykhaleek jawebny abkl 9ara7a

Marwan: Shoo?

Me: Shay stwa beink ww bein 7rmty?

Marwan: (hesitates) la leish he gayltlk shay?

Me: Haih bas aba asma3 mn 6arafk

Marwan: Wallah ma3rf sho agoolk

i had to like i had a feeling something did happen

Me: Gool na7na akhwan ww mabeina shay

Marwan: Okai.. tathker yome chfnakom fe Disney Land

Me: Haih..

Marwan: Choof ana bakhaberk lanek ukhooyeh ww 3azeeez 3alya lazm akhaberk

Me: Shoo nzain

Marwan: Chft Jawaher ww.........................................

'Til death do us part - Chapter 30

Eman: Positive or negative nothing will change what happened to you
Jawaher: I know eman, i'm so scared!
Me: Estahday b2allah ya bent el 7alaal it wont be positive i'm sure
Jawaher: How many minutes bagy
Me: Its suppose to show up no...
Jawaher: EMAN LOOK!
Me: Ah 7emdillah !
Jawaher: Please don't tell anyone what i told you eman bainy ww bainch. PLEASE!
Me: Don't worry your secret is safe with me
Jawaher: But why am i late? why do i get cramps?
Me: 3ady it happens
Abdulrahman: Jawaher!
Jawaher: Oh shit throw the things away i dont want him to know i took a pregnancy test
Me: ok
Jawaher: Na3am!

Jawaher rushed to her husband, i grabbed the things, put them into the plastic bag and threw it in the garbage and left the toilet and to my surprise

Me: Marwan!
Marwan: Hala Eman
Me: ahh shoo tesawy hinee?
Marwan: Abdulrahman ya'ay yakhth a'3ratha min al beit
Me: aha wein ray7een?
Marwan: al gym
Me: cool
Marwan: Eman .. jawaher khaberatch shay?
Me: Like wat?
Marwan: Anything ?
Me: No why?
Marwan: bas 2s2al .. met2akdah ma khaberatch shay?
Me: Heih shu batkhaberny mathalan?
Marwan: Madree
Abdulrahman: Oh! Eman ntyyy hneee??? Jawaher ma khaberatny
Me: *laughs* yalla baroo7lha
Abdulrahman: yalla you girls have fun

i left and rushed to Jawaher, stayed quiet until i heard the door slam

Me: IMAGINE !!
Jawaher: wat?
Me: Marwan si2alnee ithaa entee khabarteeny shay?
Jawaher: WAT! LIKE WAT!? DID YOU TELL HIM?
Me: WAT! NO! Bas tam yigoolee are you sure she didnt tell you anything
Jawaher: I'll text him!
Me: NO! DONT! WAT IF ABDULRAHMAN SEE'S HIS PHONE!
Jawaher: Hmm.. 9dgch
Me: Ww bay3rf enh i told you and i might know something about what happened
Jawaher: heih 9a7.. But wat if marwan tells him, like belghalat?
Me: Dont worry he won't i know marwan
Jawaher: kay...

'til death do us part - Chapter 29

Secrets, why are they so hard to keep.. eventually i will have to tell abdulrahman about what happened between me and marwan, but things will turn out bad.. Abdulrahman loves marwan so much i dont want to ruin their friendship.. Not only their friendship but our marriage!..  I should just keep things to myself i mean come on Abdulrahman has secrets of his own doesn't he? ..

Abdulrahman: Ho! Ayh! Jawaher shfeech?
Me: Ha ??
Abdulrahman: Sa7anah shay feech? shay y3wrch?
Me: mm la bas mtwalha 3a haly
Abdulrahman: Fdeeeitch yalla ma bga shai 10 more days ww bayoona
Me: heih nshalla
Abdulrahman: Okay ana ba6la3 shway weyah alshabab
Me: Ok tc

He left i grabbed my iPhone and called Eman told her to come over, i threw my phn next to me, i got up to play with Ahmed 'til eman arrives

*iPhone rings*
Me: hala eman
Eman: agoolch im passing by CVS to get some stuff do you need anything mn hnak ?
Me: Salamtch get here quick em! i miss you!!!
Eman: *laughs* okaay Juju

i put my phn down and ahmed touched my phn and started playing with it, i took it away from him and saw the period track app on.. the number on my screen caught my attention, i felt like i couldn't breath i called Eman back

Eman: I'm almost done Jawaher lhal daraja you miss me
Me: Eman....
Eman: shoo feech?????!! are you okay!!?
Me: Can you please get me ..
Eman: Latst7eeeen shoo tbeinn amreee Ntyyy
Me: a pregnancy test ..
Eman: Laish! are you pregnant !
Me: I don't know, I'm 16 days late ...

'til death do us part - Chapter 28

Me: Jawaher i can hold myself, i love u from the 1st time i set my eyes on you..
Jawaher: But im married !
Me: I know Jawaher, please basaweelch ayshay just leave Abdulrahman Ww ana bat8adamlch Ww bareby a7mad wiyach
Jawaher: Rayly Ww a7ibah, ma aba akhsara are u crazy !
Me: Jawaher please
Jawaher: Marwan khalas ! please leave me and my family alone ! As much as i want to tell Abdulrahman wat you did i dont want to jeopardize your friendship with him, he sees you as your best-friend your brother, he actually talks about you more than his son.. What u did was so low of you..
Me: Dkheeelich jawaher please abach
Jawaher: Well too bad.. you really really put that black dot in my life i never expected it..
Me: Ana asf Jawaher
Jawaher: What about your girlfriend that you were with, eh you know what i have to go, dont you ever get close to me or my son


She got up and left, without leaving me to say something.. What i did was wrong.. but i cant hold myself towards her.. she's the one i really love, why didn't she wait 'til she finished her studies, laish abdulrahman esta3yal ww khathaha, what she said she really ment it, she wouldnt call me and ask to meet up.. Thoughts running through my mind.. Regrets..


Abdulrahman: Bo 7i9aa! Oy ! marwano balak! tfaker femno
Me: Sho tsawee entih ehneeh
Abdulrahman: Ya'ay akhthly starbucks, achoufk mn rb3 sa3ah yals Ww sar7an Wazager 3alaik mob mentibeh tefaker fel 3asheegah ha?
Me: La yabooy ay 3asheegah
Abdulrahman: Hatheech ely kanat weyak fDisney
Me: Haih Haih ya 3abdlra7man ra7at hatheech khalaas
Abdulrahman: Afaa
Me: Egrb
Abdulrahman: Lala barw7 ana 3alyeh assignment lazim aslmeh wara bacher
Me: enchoufk 3eyal


Abdulrahman left.. when he asked abt the "3asheegah" i was really talking about his wife, and really felt bad, i looked at my phn and scrolled through the pictures and there was a pic of her i kept starring at for a while clicked on the delete button, Jawaher nadra ma balga bent mithlha.. A7bhaa 

'til death do us part - Chapter 27

Why did he do that? What will Abdulrahman say? What would he do if i told him? Did i like get raped?

I'm so scared .. this wasn't suppose to happen, how can he do that to his best friend ? why did he do that ?  but he was with his girlfriend ! i can't tell anyone about this, what if i get pregnant and Abdulrahman then finds out that its not his baby!? I need to meet up with him ask him why did he do that and what might happen!

Abdulrahman: Jawaher!

Me: Ha?

Abdulrahman: Shfech u zoned out faj2ah

Me: La mashay

Abdulrahman: Are you sure?

Me: Yah 

Abdulrahman: Hmm shay mthaygench ?

Me: La i guess its my time of the month again 

Abdulrahman: oh ok 7abeeby, bakheth a7mad Ww bawadyh el Pier bala3ba shiwayah, bateen ma3ana?

Me: La mafeya bas t7amal 3alaih okay?

Abdulrahman: Nshalla 

Me: Ww kheth a'3ratha 7a6hom fel sayara incase you need it 

Abdulrahman: ok 7abeeby

I gave him Ahmeds bag, he took Ahmed kissed me on my cheeks and said " I love you 3yoonee " and left.. I felt like crying.. i started shaking as they walked away, and dove off..  i have to do it.. i need to know why did he do that to me, i'll be carrying thing for the rest of my life, i'm scared i don't know what to do, i'm really depressed i dont want to ruin my marriage.. i love Abdulrahman.. i don't want to lose him.. 

*rings*

Voice: Aloo

Me: Marwan ....