'Til death do us part - Chapter 20

There she laid ..
Her golden skin glowing ..
Her long black hair behind her ..
its been a 2 weeks already ..
And there he is ..
Our son ..

I dont really know if i should be happy that i have a son now or be sad that my wife is in a coma .. i can't stand seeing here laying there .. this is getting harder more and more ..
jawaher's parents never left her side..      its just like a nightmare .. A7mad was in the NICU as he was a premature baby ..  am i gonna lose jawaher?.. 
this is just getting so hard .. 
will i be a single parent ?.. will this take years ..?


Jawahers dad: ana shai el wa7eed elee khayf mneh eneh jawaher tel7ag omha .. 
Jawahers stepmom: Fal allah wla falik ya a7mad latgool chy 
Me: 3amy mom f eedna shai nd3eelha bas 
Jawahers stepmom: 9dga 3abdlra7man 
Jawahers dad: (starts crying) ma a7b achoof benty chee mat'hon 3alaya esbo3ain fehal 7ala 


i had to leave i cant handle it .. i went to the toilet and wiped my tears away and washed my hands .. left the room and went to the NICU to see my son... i stood there and was looking at my son for 3 hours .. he had tiny hands and feet.. his diaper was huge on him which kinda looked funny .. jawahers brother in law was calling me a few times but i didnt want to answer from how depressed i am .


Nurse: Are you his father ?
Me: Yes 
Nurse: The doctor wants to see you in your wife's room he's looking for you
Me: why!
Nurse: i dont know 


my heart started pounding i got worried .. is jawaher ok? .. i walked as fast as i can .. shaking .. thoughts rushing through my mind .. this is all hard for me .. i can't really handle it .. as i opened the door .. i saw him standing there .. i did not knw wat to say .. and she was there .. i rushed towards her with tears of joy .. jawaher woke up from her coma .. i grabbed her hand and kissed it and then kissed her forehead .. i  didn't expect this .. it was just like a dream .. Jawaher was glowing .. my wife woke up and looks better than ever .. 


Jawaher: 3abdlra7man wain kent ? i've been up almost 2 hours now 
Me: sorry 7abeeby kent 3end a7mad
Jawaher: A7mad mnu ?
Me: Ma galtalech el diktora ?
Jawaher: Galatly shu?
Doctor: 7abeit akhalyk entah tkhaberha 
Me: Jawaher after you fainted you had a surgery and wladty .. it was safer for the baby
Jawaher: A c-section?
Me: yes 7abeeby
Jawaher: I'm a mother now?
Me: yes your a mother 
Jawaher : (tears up) momken ashoofa?
Doctor: Ok bakhaly w7da min al nursat teech with a wheel chair 


we took jawaher to see our son .. she put her hands into where he was in his hand grabbed her small finger .. i can see her hands shaking ..


Me: leish khayfa
Jawaher: mob m9adga enah weldy 
Me: yeshbahny 9a7
Jawaher: (laughs) laa2 yeshbahny ana 
Me: lalala ana 
Jawaher: La2 anaa la2ny omah! 
Me: (laughs) ok w ana ubooh .. khalas shu rayech n9 ana n9 entee
Jawaher: (laughs) khalas ok .. 


we stayed with a7mad for half an hour then left .. and went back to the room .. al7emdla now my everything is ok .. el ham ely knt shalna 6a7 .. jawaher and i talked about what happened in the 2 past weeks .. i still can't believe my wife is awake and talking to me ...




I love you jawaher ..

'Til death do us part - Chapter 19

Abdulra7man: a7maad mno !!

Me: Weldk

Abdulra7man: Sho ?

Me: Weldk 

Abdulra7man: 9abree 9abree khaleeny astew3eb ! .. entee 7amel eb walad ?

Me: Heih

Abdulra7man: Ww MNO EBOOOH!

Me: (bursts out laughing) Nta ba3ad mnoo (continues laughing)

Abdulra7man: Walad jawaher !

Me: Yes 7abibi walad

Abdulra7man: Nzein sho tebein?

Me: fatburger and skinny fries w bas 

Abdulra7man: shu not enough .. Hello ! 

filipino: Yes sair my i take ur order 

Abdulra7man: i want 2 double fat burger and big skinny fries !

filipino: wat abt ur drinks sir 

Abdulra7man: Coke in a can 

filipino: so 2 double fat burger, with large skinny fries, and 2 coke anything else?

Me: yah! and fat burger with skinny fries but i want i small

Abdulra7man: nono shes pregnant cancel that order she doesn't need it !

Me: 3abdlra7man! bamtan

Abdulra7man: maykhe9ch 

so we got our food went bak to my dads house and had our late night dinner, abdulra7man couldn't even sleep mn el far7a, i put on the notebook and slept.. i woke up the next day  and abdulrahman was asleep like a dead person snoring next to me, i looked at the time its 12:47 pm! i rushed to the toilet and got ready quick i've never slept till 12 .. i woke up abdulrahman and told him to atleast pray and go back to sleep .. i went down and saw my day just getting in

Dad: Jawaher tawich nasha umi?

Me: Haih baba 

Dad: Sahraneen shakelkom ha?

Me: (giggling) haih baba ba3dna Jet lagged 

he laughed kissed me and went to him room, i went looking for my step mom but she was nowhere to be found, i went back to the room and saw abdulrahman awake but he didn't look well

Me: 3abdlra7man 7abeebi sho feek?

Abdulrahman: Ta3ban jesmee y3werny w rasey bayenfejer

Me: Maybe 3ashan ur jet lagged

Abdulrahman: La jawaher ta3ban ta3ban!

i went close to him and put my hand on his forehead, it was hott ! .. i rushed to my dad and told him that abdulrahman had a fever and that he doesn't look well, he grabbed his keys and i helped abulrahman up and help him out on his kandora and rushed him to the hospital.. i was so scared, my eyes fileld with tears .. 3abdlra7man looked so sick, i never saw him this way ever .. 

Dad: Jawaher redee albeit ana batam weeya 3abdlra7man

Me: La2 oboya lazem atam weya 3abdlra7man 

Dad: jawaher baba plss redy entee 7amel ma abach tat3ebeen 

Me: dont worry baba im fine as soon as they get him into a room enta erja3 el beit w ana batem weyah 

Dad: khalas elee yraye7ch 

they took abdulrahman into a room which he'll be staying over my dad left and i stayed with him, i call om abdulrahman and told her that he's not feeling well and that he's in hospital and i'll be staying with him.. they said enahom bayoon dbai b3d el m'3arb so i'll just stay in the hospital and wait for them ..

when it got close to 6 i can see abdulrahmans parents and his sisters and younger brothers coming towards us ..

Abdulrahmans dad: 6amneeny 3ala 3abdlra7man shu 7alta ?

Me: el7mdla a7san ibooya

Abdulrahmans mom: Meta baye6la3?

Me: Ma3rf wallah bas galo baykhaloonah ilyoom alflail w etha 7alta a7san bacher bay6al3oonah 

Abdulrahmans dad: heeih a7san weinoh a7eeneh ragd?

Me: Heih raged 

Abdulrahmans mom: khalas 3eyal ma band5al 3ndeh w ne7shrah .. 

Me: tfa'6lo dakhel shay meelas 

so we went in and sat in the majlis for around 15 minutes .. i then heard abdulrahman call my name i ran to the room where he was in and his parents came after me 

Me: Salamat matshof shar 3abdlra7man 

Abdulrahman: allah ysalemch 7abeeby 

Abdulrahmans mom: salamat uboyeh 

Abdulrahman: umii shoo tsaween hny 

Abdulrahmans mom: Jawaher te9latebna w khaberatna enek fel mestashfa fa gelna nee

Abdulrahmans dad: Bu A7mad shu akhbarek !

Abdulrahman: Shdarak uboyeh a7mad

Abdulrahmans dad: Jawaher khaberat umk fa khaberatny umk taw..

that was the last thing i heard.. I felt like the world is spinning on me .. everything in front of me went blurry .. i started shaking .. i couldn't see anything in front if me, the whole place went black ...

'Til death do us part - Chapter 18

F6aim: 7AMEL !!

Mom: Mabrook uboyeh testahal

Me: Allah ybarek feech umeeh .. bas mesh tro7en tkhabren hal jawaher .. banfaj2hom

Mom: Nshalla 

Maryam: Allah i might have blonde niece or nephew 

Me: (laughing) shoo yikh9a !

Maryam: 3ashan omha mesh mwa6na .. was her mom a blonde? omg ur baby might have blue eyes!

Me: Maryoom jelby wayhech yala

Mom: Weinha Jawaher?

Me: Ra7at el '3erfa batbadel malabes'ha w baty

Mom: Roo7 choofha 6awelat 

Me: Nshalla

So we're back in the country for the summer .. my family were thrilled to knw that my wife is pregnant ..  i went upstairs and saw jawaher laying on the bed

Me: 7abeebtee sho feech?

Jawaher: come come feel this ! 

Me: Sho?

Jawaher: 7a6 yadk 3a ba6ny

Me: (placing my hand on jawahers belly) ma7s eb shai

Jawaher: Wait!!

Me: SHO HA ! BATRABEEN!!

Jawaher: (laughing) laa the baby just kicked 

Me: is it suppose to do that?!!

Jawaher: Yes 7abeebee 

Me: Can you tell me if its a boy or a girl plssss!???

Jawaher: Nop .. 

Me: Jawaher plssss aba a3rf i want to pick a name for my baby 

Jawaher: U'll knw about it after 4 months 

Me:  la 3 

Jawaher: Leish

Me: 3shan batedkhlen shaher el sads next week

Jawaher: I can't believe its been 6 months already

Me: (laughing) time flys 

Mary: Madam, sir food is ready

Me: ok tell my mother we're coming, Yala jawaher enroo7 net'3ada

Jawaher: emm i craving fish

Me: (laughing) akeed msaween

re7na t'3deina ma3a my parents and khawaty .. my younger brothers were asleep 6ab3an and my older brothers we're at their house.. jawaher haven't met my sisters in law lein a7en i hope they get along with her .. 

Dad: Jawaher ma khabarteena walad wla bent

Jawaher: Wallah 3amy..

Dad: Laa2 msh 3amy ana b7sbat obooch wntey mthel benty lazem tnadeny obooy

Jawaher: (giggling) Nshalla 

Me: Obooyeh jawaher mob 6ay3eh tgoolee etha walad wla bent 

Dad: Leish umi 

Jawaher: L2aneh kelyoom 7ashreny yeb'3y ye3rf etha walad wela bent w ana ma aba agooleh 

Dad: Bas khabreeny ana nzein beiny w beinch 

Jawaher: Khala9 chy ok

Me: Laaa mayooz chy ! ana rayelha ! 

Dad: (laughing) maykhe9ek enteh beiny w bein zojat weldy

Me: Sem3o ento obooyeh merty merty haay 

Dad: a3rf 3dna asraar ana ww he ba3ad

Maryam: Khabroonyy ana! 

Me: Chub entee yahel oo 7alj ma7ad ykhaberch shay

Maryam: Baba! choof 3abdlra7man

Dad: Maykhe9ny khabry merteh

Maryam: Jawaher!

Jawaher: (laughing) 3abdlra7man stop it

Me: Ana ma saweeit shaay 

F6aim: ifff asmeekom 7ashra

Mom: F6aim i96albay ..

Dad: Mozeh wein Sbeecheh w rgyeh?

Mom: ragdeen 6ab3an 

Me: Mno hathaila ?

Mom: Khalaf w 7amad ba3ad mno

Me: ohhh 

so after lunch, jawaher and i went to the room she slept and i went to wake up beeves and butt head .. 

Khalaf: 3ablra7man 5alna nargd ! 

Me: Gomo nesho yala!! obooyeh yanshed 3ankom!

Khalaf: Nzein teraya 10 minutes ww banesh

Me: 7amado goom nesh yalla!! 

7amad: NZAIN NZAIN!

Khalaf: Ana mareed banam 

Me: Khalaf en ma nasheit wallah batlgaah 

Khalaf: Ohoo NZAIN BAGOM!

Me: Baseer ww bard balgakom 3end oboyeh

i left them and went to the living room sat with my father and we started talking about business, politics etc.. 

Hazza3: Oh! bu3of! 7emdella 3al salmah!

Me: Hala Hala Bu Na9r allah ysalemk

Dad: (clears his throat) Wa3alaikom el salam

Hazza3: Oh Mar7ba obooyeh

Dad: Heih m3alayeh metwaleh 3a 3abdlra7man 6ab3an ma batchofnee

Hazza3: laa obooyeh bas en9edemt ma kent a3erf enahom raj3o

Dad: heih ne7na ba3ad a9ba7na chfnahom mawjoden .. yalla ana batra5a9 baro7 anam 

Hazza3: Ha shoo el draseh ?

Me: wallah tamam yala bajee seneh w n9 w bakhale9 

Hazza3: chayh ma takheth summer ? batkhale9 bisr3a 

Me: Wallah merty 7amel ww 8ararna nerja3 .. he tebany akheth summer w kanat batyls fl blad lein traby bas ma aba akhaleha 

Hazza3: heih heih el newlywed matesta'3na 3an el 7erma (laughs) 

Me: (laughing) 3abdallah safar?

Hazza3: Lala 7rmteh ba3ad 7amel bay9ayfon fel blad

Me: Wnto 

Hazza3: ba3dna ma 8ararna 

Me: zein zein

Hazza3: yala ana baroo7 3end umayah 

Hazza3 left so i went to the room and saw jawaher awake 

Me: 7abeeebee nasheity w ma zgrteny 

Jawaher: Gelt yemken ur with ur brothers ma kent aba a7sherk

Me: Heih ken yales weya Hazza3 ww r7t awa3y Khalaf ww 7amad

Jawaher: T3arf we neber some about our families

Me: T9adgeen 9a7! ok well 3abdalla is the eldest he's married to wafa and they have two kids Asma and Amal and a baby on the way.. Hazza3 is the 2nd and he's married to mona they have a boy msamena 3al waled Na9er then comes f6aim she's engaged to 7amid weld 3amy then its me 3egby is the twins Khalaf and 7amad they're 16 and then maryam she's 14 .. 

Jawaher: so thats 4 brothers and 2 sisters 

Me: Yah .. U?

Jawaher: Salama is the eldest she's married to Saif, Then comes Shamsa shes married to Sultan, 3afra is married to Yousif, 79a is married to Yem3a and 7amda is married to 3li 

Me:  u want to go visit ur family ?

Jawaher:  Yah akeed 

Me: Ok enroo7 elyoom

Jawaher: La khalha bacher 

Me: la elyoom enroo7 .. its Thursday 

Jawaher: yah 9a7 all my sisters go there on thursday .. khala9 lets go

so we went to dubai, jawahers family were all surprised that we're back ... jawaher told them the good news, her stepmom started crying as she was happy for Jawaher, her sisters were so happy for us .. her dad was speechless.. so we spent the weekend at her parents house.. 

Jawaher: lets go out im craving fat burger

Me: Ok

Jawaher: amm 3abdlra7man

Me: yes 7abeebee

Jawaher: Am i getting fat?

Me: No u look amazing and ur body havent changed a bit.. except for the golden ticket here 

Jawaher: (laughing) bas ana akel wayed 3abdlra7man its not good i dont want to turn fat 

Me: u wont 7abeeby i promise

Jawaher: A7mad bask 3ad men el trafees

Me: Wat? Whos a7mad !!! ...

Jawaher:  I know ur hungry we're going to go eat now !

Me: Besmela jawaher mno tramseen a7mad mno ?

'Til death do us part - Chapter 17

I'm Pregnant ...

omg .. i dont really know what to do how will i tell abdulrahman ! .. omg omg .. i'm so scared .. im not suppose to be ya3ni i did it bel 7alal .. bes this is a big step for me .. i'm going to be a mother .. eman swore she wont tell any living soul .. how will i bring it up to abdulrahman .. its not an easy thing .. i don't want to tell anyone about it .. not even my family ..

Eman: mta bet5abreen 3abdlra7man
Me: ma3rf .. how should i tell him
Eman: hmm .. get an ultra sound
Me: lala i wanna be with him we i go do it for the 1st time .. i'll think of something

so i called abdulrahman to tell him the good news but i couldn't i was scared and shy so i just told him that i'm leaving early bcz my class for the day was canceled .. so at home eman and i started "baby" talking .. how the room would look like wat if it was a boy or a girl.. where will i have this baby .. well its almost march and so i might be having this baby october november december according to eman haha.. no one will know about this until i'm 4-6 months pregnant .. and abdulrahman must agree to this ..

*door slam!*


Eman: besmelallah sho ha!
Me: dont worry its abdulrahman
Eman: oh ok goodluck ana barw7 nw ben needs me to help him .. he misses u btw
Me: aww i miss him too we must meet up all of us
Eman: 6ab3an ! love u

eman left and abdulrahman came into the living room .. he looked so exhausted .. i didn't want to tell him now .. while he's like this ..

Abdulrahman: Jawaher ana bargd shway wa3eeny b3d sa3a pls areed aro7 el gym
Me: Nshalla wat about lunch?
Abdulrahman: lala mareed ..
Me: Mob zein tiseer with an empty stomach 7abeeby
Abdulrahman: 5ala9 jahzeely something light to eat
Me: Nshalla

i went downstairs got abdulrahmans protein shake ready, a light snack for him .. and got me a bite to eat .. so an hour has passed i woke abdulrahman .. he went and got ready for the gym .. as he was leaving our housekeeper Elmira came .. thankgod i'm not going to be alone .. Elmira is an old housekeeper who adores abdulrahman she calls him "mi angelito "which means " my little angel "in spanish .. shes so sweet and kind and i absolutely adore her ! ..


Elmira: Mi chica whats wrong with you .. 
Me: nothing why?
Elmira: u look pale .. are u pregnant ?!
Me: (laughing) No!
Elmira: Mi chica i know a pregnant women when i see one
Me: well ... i think i am i'm not sure 
Elmira: ay yaay chica! does abdulrahman know about it !?
Me: no not yet .. but Elmira its a secret ! promise me u wont tell any1 
Elmira: i promise chica .. 


so i sat there in the kitchen bar thinking what is the best way to tell abdulrahman .. 
i had nothing so i grabbed my phn ..
and opened his chat screen on bbm and wrote " i'm pregnant" but did not send it .. it left wrong so i cleared wat i wrote and the wrote " Congratulations .. ur going to be a father " i sent it without thinking .. 2 minutes later i got a reply " What do u mean " he's either acting dumb or i'm talking gibberish  " I'm pregnant "... he read did it and did not say a single word .. 10 minutes later i hear the house door slam .. 


Abdulrahman: Jawaher ! JAWAHER!
Elmira: mi angelito why are u shouting !? something is wrong 
Abdulrahman: where is my wife !?
Elmira: shes in the kitches 
Abdulrahman: testahbelain wela 9dg ely ana agra 
Me: it was positive
Abdulrahman: (happy and shouting) CHATHABA!


he wouldn't believe me until i got an ultra sound so we went and i did .. and it turns out i'm a month and a half pregnant .. one of the reasons of me fainting a few weeks ago was bcz of me being pregnant .. and also the doctor totally forgot to tell abdulrahman that i was pregnant .. so we agreed on not telling anyone at all about it the only people who will know about it is eman, elmira and obviously the doctor .. our family wont know about it until we go back to the UAE .. 


Abdulrahman: ma9adg yaraby! ana bakon obo 
Me: (giggling) i'm gonna be a mommy
Abdulrahman: aba aser a5th stuff for the baby elyome .. khala9 men bacher we're baby shopping .. 
Me: ok (giggling)
Abdulrahman: A7ebch ya om ..
Me: (laughing) its too early
Abdulrahman: YARABY ! I can't stop smiling and u cant stop laughing .. ta3aly 5aleeeny aboosch ! (grabbed me and kissed me on my cheeks)


the next day we went out to go buy stuff for the baby i knw i knw its too early but we're so excited about it .. and we're planning on changing a room close to our bed room turn it into the babies nursery which will be connected to our room .. i am thankful for having this baby and being the mother of abdulrahmans children.. i cant wait to see it in my arms .. its my baby.. My baby ...

'Til death do us part - Chapter 16

Razan: Jawaher a word pls
Eman: Sho tebayn entee ?
Razan: I said jawaher not eman
Me: B'3eity shai ?
Razan: Yes we need to talk
Me: If you have something say it here and now
Razan: Scared? (laughs)
Me: No i'm not what do you want exactly
Razan: ok i'll tell u .. all this ur going through is a lie ..
Me: wat is?
Razan: ur marriage .. eventually in the end u 2 will end up apart .. and abdulrahman will be with me .. he promised me .. i was the one .. u ruined everything .. ur a whore .. every guy i go out with u eventually take him away from me ..
Me: LISTEN! i never took someone away from u ! ur the one here bitching around and stealing other girls boyfriend ,, REMEMBER WHEN YOU USE TO TELL ME ONCE I GET SICK OF THIS GUY IM GONNA GO AFTER THAT GIRLS BOYFRIEND!
Razan: i never said that
Me: ohh really ... remember nasser ? .. saif? rashed ?
Razan: they just fell in love with me .. and about ur husband he is well known for being a manwhore .. running after all the girls ! ... i can get u pictures to prove it to u .. and i'm sure u wern't his choice to get married he was forced to marry u
Me: yeh by seducing them and making them fall in love with u .. get a fucking life ! .. stop trying to ruin my marriage !! 3abdlra7man and i are happy together and i was HIS choice he chose me !! it wasn't planned or anything !! ur just jealous !! just leave us alone and get ur own life !! .. I LOVE ABDULRAHMAN AND HE LOVES ME !! JUST GO AWAY !! EVERYTHING THAT COMES OUT UR MOUTH IS BULLSHIT !! NO1 BELIEVES A WORD U SAY !! GO FUCK URSELF !!
Marwan: Jawaher sho mestwy!!
Me: Its her !! she wants to ruin everything !!
Marwan: Sho everything!!
Me: My marriage !
Marwan: Eman wady jawaher 3end 3abdlra7man ytrayaha i'll handle things here


Eman and i left .. i was shivering and crying .. we got to abdulrahman and told him wat happened, he was about to go and hit razan but we told him marwan was handling it .. it was along drive home .. abdulrahman was trying ti call marwan, but there was no answer .. i got back home .. took a shower wore my pj's and slept ... the next day i got up brushed my teeth and went down to get the breakfast ready for abdulrahman .. i went down and saw him in the kitchen .. which was weird i thought he was asleep

Me: laish wa3y ?
Abdulrahman: ma gdrt argd qahrtnyy razan .. aba athba7ha aba asaweebha shai mob 3aref sho !
Me: forget it 7abeeby wallah she's not worth it
Abdulrahman: Jawaher i dont want her to ruin our marriage wallah .. 7ayawaneh hal ensaneh ! .. (looks at his phn) .. Jawaher .. marwan just told me to file a restraining order against her
Me: latkbron el salfa 3abdlra7man wallah shes not worth it
Abdulrahman: ely yry7ch


so we got into the car and head to our classes .. my class was canceled so i went to eman i had something to tell her

Me: Eman im late
Eman: no ur not
Me: no i mean period late
Eman: WAT !! UR PREGNANT !
Me: allah y'3arbelch sektyy ! f'6a7teeny .. i dont know if i am
Eman: YOUR GONNA GET TESTED RIGHT NOW YALLA !!!


so i got a pregnancy test and ..